As a mom of a three year old and a one year old, I find myself breaking down far more often than I would like! I am angry, I am tired, and I am worried I can’t handle the plethora of children I desire to have. As I threaten punishment (time out or a nap) on my boy for continuing to ignore the things I have continued to ask him to do (ie. eat the food you just asked for, pick up the papers you just threw all over the floor, or stop walking directly in-front of your little sister so that she falls). I always ask myself, “What am I doing wrong?”

If this doesn’t describe you and you are a clear headed individual whose kids mind her every word, God bless you and keep you and please by all means, share your wisdom with me!

But, if you are like me and you feel like you are one angry outburst from driving off and never coming back because you feel like the kids would be better off without you, continue reading!

I am happy to confirm to you that it’s not just you! I have said it before and I will continue to say it, You. Are. Not. Alone!

The devil is a liar and a big lie he likes to put into mothers heads is that they are doing the mothering thing all wrong, that it’s not worth it, that you should just give up the good work you are doing.

But I am telling you now (looking myself in the eyes), God is so much bigger than you and He has everything worked out, all we have to do is trust in Him!

I once heard a saying “The days are long but the years are short” and, as I look back on the last almost four years with my son I can say that this statement is so very true! Every day seems so long until I take a minute to gaze at him with fresh loving eyes and through the tears I wonder where the time has gone?

Life is so short but our focus is what makes or breaks us!

So, I have found a few things that really help me to re-center myself and gain clarity and energy to continue the beautiful work of motherhood.

1) Step away from the problem

Put your pencils down, stop writing, you need a break!

I will often hastily remove myself from the situation if my husband is able to take the kids, if not I will wait. I often retract from speaking or doing much until I am able to get away and relax my emotions.

2) Pray

This often begins as a cry just before number 1 happens then once I have given myself some space I get to talking to God the way I talk to Him. He knows our wants and needs but He delights in hearing from us and we need to make our requests and our honest emotions known to him.

3) Wait/listen

I try to go to someplace quite and outside that way I can sit back and listen to the sounds of life as I see God moving in the life around me that seems to be unfazed by my tantrum and emotions. The trees don’t care that my three year old just spilled the drink I just told him to pick up on to the carpet, inviting ants into our home. The trees are just there, thanking God for the sun.

4) listen to a sermon or a Godly book

The best Book out there is the Bible but sometimes I find it easier to listen to someone speak on it or to simply type in “Christian motherhood anger” into a search bar! It’s not the most elegant but my heart is desperate for change and I am crying out for understanding!

5) Write

After everything I usually write out what I have discovered and what God has poured into my heart.

6) Enjoy the growth

God uses these times to shape and grow us! He is molding you into the women He wants you to be, the greatest earthly version of yourself. But we need the struggle and the seeking and the continuous prayer to get there!

Do not loose heart!

Jesus love’s you ❤️